毕业于麻省理工学院后失业近一年——一番吐槽
（这不是一个解决问题的抱怨，而是我需要释放我的想法，因为我生活中的任何人都不理解我。）<p>我不知道该向哪里求助，但我非常尴尬地说，我们即将迎来我今年二月毕业（*课程6*）一周年，而我仍然失业，这让我和我的家人都感到失望。我已经申请了数百个职位，和经常招聘的技术人员一起调整了我的简历，定制了求职信，获得了推荐，与我网络中的相关联系人进行了交谈，在面试中表现得很好，但都没有结果。我从拒绝我的雇主那里得到的反馈从来没有提到我有什么问题，只是他们找到了在特定行业或技术栈中有现成经验的其他人。我该如何在入门级别与之竞争呢？而且，我失业的时间越长，在雇主眼中的印象就越差。我在本科时有两个实习经历作为我的“工作经验”，一个在知名公司，另一个在初创公司。不幸的是，我的个人项目并没有特别深入，但我不确定这在此时对我影响有多大。考虑到目前世界的情况，我已经将某些技术领域排除在考虑之外，但我真的不认为这应该成为我的障碍。<p>我知道进入这个就业市场时形势不佳，但最近我真的陷入了抑郁。感觉就像我被卖了一个谎言，认为MIT的名号会为我打开以前无法接触的门，但似乎没有什么能帮助我找到工作。更糟糕的是，当我遇到老朋友时，他们甚至无法掩饰对我仍然失业的震惊。因此，我不得不假装这只是一个间隔年，都是计划的一部分。我开始接受这样一个事实：我可能永远无法在行业内作为*软件工程师或在技术领域工作*，这真的很糟糕！也许是时候考虑换个职业了，但我不知道该转向什么。我在MIT时从未觉得自己比其他人好，所以这一切都让我觉得我在自己选择的领域中不够优秀。<p>我甚至无法在这段空闲时间里做我的爱好，因为我花了很多时间在申请工作、无休止地刷手机和郁闷中。我真的很感激能回家和父母住在一起。我想他们很高兴我能回家一段时间。但现在我开始觉得自己像个拖累，尤其是作为那个*中间的妹妹*，就只是……在那里。我感觉自己像是一颗绽放出五彩烟花的烟花（大家都惊叹不已），然后……就什么都没有了。我考虑开始一些志愿者或副项目，但在我脑海深处，总有一个声音告诉我，我一无是处，因为我无法赚钱。我是个失败者。
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(This is not a problem-solving rant this is a I need to release my thoughts cuz no one in my life understands rant)<p>Not sure where else to turn to but I'm extremely embarrassed to say we're nearing the 1 year anniversary of my Feb graduation (*course 6*) and I'm still unemployed, to the dismay of me and my family. I've applied to hundreds of jobs, tailored my resume with tech folks who regularly hire, tailored cover letters, gotten referrals, spoken to relevant connections in my network, done really well in interviews, all to no avail. The feedback I've received from asking employers who rejected me is never something wrong about me, just that they found someone else with pre-existing experience in that particular industry or tech stack. How am I supposed to compete with that at an entry level? And the longer I go without work, the worse it gets in the eyes of employers. I have two internships from back in undergrad as my "work experience" but that's it, one at a known company and one at a startup. My personal projects were not super intensive unfortunately, but I'm not sure how much that's affecting me at this point. Given the way things are going in the world, I remove certain tech sectors from consideration, but I really don't think that should be a handicap.<p>I knew the job market was bad going into it, but recently, I've genuinely fallen into depression. It feels like I was sold this lie that the MIT name would open doors previously inaccessible to me, but nothing seems to be helping me land a job. Sucks more when I run into old friends who can't even hide their shock that I'm <i>still</i> unemployed. So I have to pretend this is just a gap year and all part of the plan. I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that I might never work in industry as a *software engineer or in tech*, and that sucks! Maybe it's already time for a career change, I don't know to what. I never felt too good about myself at MIT compared to others and so this all feels like proof that I'm not skilled enough to work in my chosen field.<p>I can't even do my hobbies with all this free time because I spend a lot of it applying to jobs, doomscrolling, and sulking. I am really grateful that I was able to move back home with my parents. I think they were happy to have me back for a bit. But now I'm starting to feel like a drag and burden, especially as the *middle child sister* who’s just… there. I feel like a firework that exploded in bursts of color (everyone ooed and ah-ed), and then... nothing. I'm considering starting some volunteer/side projects, but persistently, in the back of my mind, is this voice telling me I'm worthless because I can't make any money. I am a failure.